My doctor’s words sounded like death sentence: “You have ischemia.”
That word denoting a restricted heart blood vessel sounds familiar now. After all, it was only more than a year ago that I had to undergo an angioplasty operation at the Saint Luke’s Hospital to clear up five blood vessels that were found to be up to 90 percent blogged.
I was turned from a walking human time bomb into a bionic man after six wire stents were inserted into my heart – the same procedure keeping former US President Bill Clinton, Elly Buendia of Eraserheads and well former First Gentleman Mike Arroyo alive (Ely, FG and me share the same heart doctors).
I thank God for saving me from a possible heart attack and promised to increase our Kristiyano-Islam Peace Library (www.krislibrary.com) literacy advocacy by building and establishing four more libraries in war-torn areas occupied by the terrorist Abu Sayyaf, the rebel group Moro Islamic Liberation Front; and the communist New People’s Army. We are out to teach children influenced and corrupted by wars that there is an alternative in education. That there is life outside the barrel of a gun.
That had been what we have been doing since my August 2010 heart operation. But this month, while sorting out books to be brought to Kris Libraries and public schools in Mindanao; lifting boxes and arranging shelves at the newly-expanded area of the Kris Peace Library in Quezon City, I developed serious cough and so we went to an EENT doctor, who also recommended us to check with my heart doctor.
And so two weeks ago, I underwent a cardio stress test which later showed me to again be having a constricted heart vein. My doctor asked me to stop physical work at Kris Library and to undergo a stress thallium test, which would involve my doing a jog while radioactive chemicals are injected into my veins so that a 3D Machine can trace the images of my heart veins to see if there is really a new blogged vein. This test will confirm the veracity of the initial test.
Naturally I was surprised. I also started questioning God’s plans.
“Why do this Lord? Why make me sick when I am just working on your will to help Christian and Muslim children in need? Is it not enough that I am already sacrificing precious time in business that would have earned my family more had I not given time to Kris Library-related activities? Is it not enough that my family give 10 percent of our earning to the advocacy every month to sustain its operations from 2001?
More questions played in my mind until I finally had the confirmatory test last Wednesday. The result will be out Saturday or next meet when we do get to meet our heart doctor.
But today my mind is clear. I have accepted my fate. Thy will be done Lord. I realized that I should even be thankful that if there is really a blogged vein, then I have to thank God that my five-day physical work at Kris Library sounded the alarm by giving me the cough and which was the reason we went to the hospital to undertake the test.
If there is a blogged vein, modern science will again ease the pain of an operation through angioplasty, a non-invasive operation that will see me out of the hospital in four-to-five days with a better functioning heart. The only painful part of the operation is the hole being burned in the pocket! Still, money can always be recovered from such an expensive operation if one is well.
Thus, as I wait for the result to be announced, I can only pray with optimism that our family, our volunteers and our donors’ work and support in the library will somehow matter in God’s plans for me.
Thank you Lord and thank you Kris Library -- and all of you who believe and support our Kris advocacy -- for saving my life once more.